2022
153 x 80 x 73 cm
steel, silicone, nylon threads, glue, steel wire, fabric
steel, silicone, nylon threads, glue, steel wire, fabric
exhibition photos at Venus Traps, Acud Macht Neu
„The fallen angel of our sisterhood“ is a sculpture that utilizes props from the film „Blood Suicide / Becoming Lilith“ that the artist was working on for over two years. The film was supposed to be a biomythographical recount of Lilith, whose mythology was cut out of the Bible as it seemed too threatening for heteropatriarchal law and order. Lilith awakens in the subconscience of the protagonist amongst the shining traps of Arachnocampa luminosa, commonly known as glow worm spiders. These predators live in humid caves where they spin beautiful nests of hammocks and tears, using their bluish green glow to lure in their prey.
The performer exits her state of tonic immobility and starts trembling, shaking, screaming and dancing - tearing down the traps with all her limbs and teeth, realizing that they are only a threat to mayflies and moths, not a threat to tempting serpents and metallic astroids. She eats the traps until they grow out her hair follicles, fingernails and her back as wings, which she weaponizes in the externalisation process of anti-patriarchal anger. She crawls out the cave to unleash and…the film was never finished.
The protagonist and performer cast in „Blood Suicide / Becoming Lilith“ who was once the artists closest friend for over ten years, understood each other as sisters.
Being the same material molded into similar forms.
Their personal processes of self destruction, externalization and healing often aligned, so the collaboration seemed a perfect match to embody Carl’s vision, the protagonist understanding it deeper than anyone else.
What they did not understand is that there is not one „right“ way of healing and that to go forward you have to leave something behind.
Now the props, footage, script and mythology of Lilith that served both Carl and the protagonist as a guide through confronting their trauma over the past years, have become relics of the past