the fallen angel of our sisterhood

2022

153 x 80 x 73 cm
steel, silicone, nylon threads, glue, steel wire, fabric

„The fallen angel of our sisterhood“ is a sculpture that utilizes props from the film „Blood Suicide / Becoming Lilith“ that the artist was working on for over two years. The film was supposed to be a biomythographical recount of Lilith, whose mythology was cut out of the Bible as it seemed too threatening for heteropatriarchal law and order. Lilith awakens in the subconscience of the protagonist amongst the shining traps of Arachnocampa luminosa, commonly known as glow worm spiders. These predators live in humid caves where they spin beautiful nests of hammocks and tears, using their bluish green glow to lure in their prey.

The performer exits her state of tonic immobility and starts trembling, shaking, screaming and dancing - tearing down the traps with all her limbs and teeth, realizing that they are only a threat to mayflies and moths, not a threat to tempting serpents and metallic astroids. She eats the traps until they grow out her hair follicles, fingernails and her back as wings, which she weaponizes in the externalisation process of anti-patriarchal anger. She crawls out the cave to unleash and…the film was never finished, due to a falling out.
The performer cast in Blood Suicide / Becoming Lilith, once the artist's closest companion for over a decade, shared a bond akin to sisterhood. Their personal journeys of self-destruction, externalization, and healing often mirrored one another, making their collaboration feel profoundly aligned. However, the process revealed that healing does not follow a singular path and sometimes moving forward requires letting go.

Now the props, footage, script and mythology of Lilith that served both Carl and the protagonist as a guide through confronting their trauma over the past years, have become relics of the past